i pulled a 5-year-old human outside into the dark onto the back porch. i had a feeling there would be stars, and there were.
he giggled for a minute as i dragged a deck chair from beneath a tree and swept the dead leaves from it.
“alright, let’s lay down and look at the stars.”
he’s still only a human of just 5 years, and hesistant:
“but i’m scared of the dark.” it was more of a question than a statement.
“it’s alright… i’ll hold you, angel.”
it was enough assurance for his little mind and he offered no resistance as i scooped him up and squeezed him snug beside me on the deck chair.
“can you see the stars, honey?” there’s a few trees spread out overhead, with stars tangled in their branches. this little human’s eyes still don’t work quite the way they should, even after surgery, and i’m never sure how much of the visible world they can see – although anyone who meets him knows how much of the world he sifts through his head. often when his brain is turning cogs one of his big blue irises wanders away to the side, giving him the most beautiful look of innocent contemplation.
“yeah.” he’ll never know the relief i felt then.
“look at that one there! the big yellow one. do you see it?” i ask; it hangs directly overhead, just above a dark line of trees.
he sees it, and i tell him that maybe it’s a planet, since it’s so big and bright. he seems enamoured with this. suddenly he exclaims,
“look, another planet! it’s huge and yellow too!”
he points upward and for a moment i search for some outstanding source of light until i realize what he is seeing.
“joe-joe, that’s a LEAF! you thought that yellow leaf was a PLANET!”
he is silent for a moment and then erupts into the most hilarious laugh. a real baby belly-laugh, absolutely uncontrollable and spilling out everywhere – onto the porch and into the previous silence. he can’t stop, and almost falls off the deck chair as i tickle his soft little stomach and squeeze him, repeating “it was a LEAF joe-joe! you’re so crazy!”
“it’s a – (quick inhale) – leaf” he gasps between his laughter, and i realize there’s really nothing in the world like being the lucky person who makes a 5-year absolutely comfortable – comfortable enough to cry laughing with in the pitch dark under a sky of stars. it’s a trust that few little humans are willing to give out, and it can’t be anything less than the most innocent exchange of love and comradery.
i then told him about the big dipper and the little dipper and how some stars are named after animals and how there’s a man in the moon if you really squint.
i didn’t tell him how the big blue orbs beneath his unfairly long lashes, wandering around to the pace of his thoughts, are far more beautiful than all of these.
Aaaaaaah- Jul!! This piece was so sweet. I love it :)))))
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YOU are so sweet! thank you so much … I loved writing up that happy little moment with my brother :))
❤ ❤ ❤
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He’s heaven!!!
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he is!!! I absolutely love watching the way his brain works and seeing him grow and learn – it’s so amazing to see the way a child develops and blooms (and finds humour 🙂
thank you eliza ❤❤❤
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This is absolutely beautiful.🌟
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thank you essa!! i believe that even the smallest moments are so wildly beautiful because life is such a precious gift ❤
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Of course!! You are amazing at capturing those little wonder-filled moments through words— don’t ever stop writing ❤️
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This is so beautiful and happy! I love it.
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ah i’m so glad you think so :,)) i’m so glad i was able to document that little scene! baby brothers are the best ❤ thank you, friend 🙂
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so sweet.
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thank you sofi :)) i gotta admit, my little brother is one of the sweetest things to exist ❤
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Aww this is so dang sweet Jul!! Darling little joe… I could see every moment of this so vividly! Oh the pictures you paint with your words…the special bond between you two is precious ❤
~D
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ahh that means the world dinneen! i’m so glad i could share that moment… joe is the funniest and cutest little boi ever ❤❤❤
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Enchanting as always, Jul! I loved the way you described his laughter, it was just so… heart-warming. It’s definitely a beautiful feeling to have a child trust you. Maybe we all need to spend more time with out inner child to discover that pure joy, you’ve captured here.
Hope you’re doing great, Jul! ❤️
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ahh you are so kind, D … your words warm my heart :,) it is such a beautiful thing! and yes, you are absolutely right! that’s the purest version of ourselves ❤
by the way, i’ve disappeared from wordpress for quite a bit, but i’m gonna go back and read the posts of yours that i’ve missed right now!
thank you ❤❤❤
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My pleasure, Jul!
I did notice that. Hope you’re back now! Can’t wait to read or see more of your incredible works! ❤️
Aw.. thank you! It’s very kind of you to always read them✨
Take care!
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i’m stunned, my skin is clear, and i need to go read that over again oh my goodness
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your comment erased my dark circles and reminded me to drink water thank you so much !
you are the sweetest jo ❤❤❤
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This is the most beautiful thing oh my gosh
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my little heart can’t handle that gracie, thank you so much :,) ❤❤❤
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Tiny hooman and beautiful writing 🤩
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the sweetest little tiny hooman!! i love him to pieces :)) thank you so much madi! ❤❤❤
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ABSOLUTELY ADORABLE, JUL!!
Honestly, this piece inspires me to write more about some of the random little moments of my own life – how you magicially recorded this moment of you and jojo stargazing was absolutely enchanting and I doubt you’ll ever forget it, now that it’s written down for you to look back on.
Great job, dear. ❤❤❤
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ahhh thank you so so much sarah! if it inspired you, then i consider this post a complete success!! you absolutely should write random little moments – it’s so rewarding to write about those experiences – especially the tiny details that fade out of your memory over time – reading it later in life brings the scene back so vividly!
you’re the best, sarah ❤❤❤
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I don’t really like kids, but this is incredibly sweet.
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that makes me so happy diamond – kids can definitely be difficult at times but they are also some of the sweetest, most hilarious people too :))
❤️❤️❤️
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This is absolutely beautiful. Lovely job, Jul.
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thank you so much Esmerelda 💙 little siblings are some of the most difficult but adorable little people ever :))
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JUL JUL JUL AHHHHH my heart is literally aching with the beauty and perfection and meaningful lines of this
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🥺🥺🥺 Emma seriously my little heart can’t handle your amazing support and positivity ❤️❤️❤️
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“i then told him about the big dipper and the little dipper and how some stars are named after animals and how there’s a man in the moon if you really squint.
i didn’t tell him how the big blue orbs beneath his unfairly long lashes, wandering around to the pace of his thoughts, are far more beautiful than all of these.”
HOW DARE YOU WRITE SOMETHING SO BEAUTIFUL
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:’))) he really had the most gorgeous eyelashes – and eyes – and God put more love into those than he did the entire geographical universe. it’s so absolutely mind blowing !!!
thank you so so much my friend❤️❤️❤️
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💛 ahhhh
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This is beautiful! I love Joe so much! ❤
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thank you!! me too … he’s such a little sweetie :)) ❤️❤️❤️
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I have chills and I might cry and
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oh weez please don’t cry, jul’s gonna sing you a lullaby
instead and
maybe take out her dad’s new banjo and strum it softly except that
the banjo just woke up her little brother so
maybe that’s not the best idea
maybe this will do: ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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I read that to the tune of hush little baby and calmed right down
I am jealous of the banjo, not gonna lie
And
Yes that is great thank you
May your brother find sleep
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